Sovereign God

I cannot believe that God wants me. I am at a place in my life where I am learning stuff about myself that kinda makes me sick. How I have functioned through life, even after coming to the Lord. I just want to say sorry to anyone who reads this and is one of the many people that I have probably hurt over the years. I have been changing the way I have been having my time with God. It's no longer just about reading as the important part. I find that praying and journaling are just as important. Listening to the voice of God, and writing it down. Man, God is so good, even at a place in  life where frustration can set in, and you feel like it's never going to stop. I am becoming a man. I am 20, about to turn 21, and I am so glad that I am getting this crap out now, and not when I have three kids and a wife. It's really funny when you read a verse from the Bible, and you kinda get it, but when you live it out, and see the principle of it in your own life, man, it's another journey. 

God,

I am grateful that your word is relevant to me now in my life.